According to the latest source, Airen seemed to be frustrated about men her own age and their willingness--or unwillingness--to commit. She seemed to be angry about the idea that many 20-something men prefer sex before a relationship. Airen had reportedly stated that she want someone who was willing to know her "up here" (her mind) and "in here" (her heart and soul) before knowing her "down there" (between her legs); some laughed in response. It had been suggested to Airen that for a committed relationship, she should seek older men. One thing I know about Airen is that she's definitely not looking for a mid-life suitor; she likes young men and is "not interested in a second father."
It seems that what made her angry about marriage is the biblical recommendation that she submit to whichever man she weds. According to the views of many, even in 2010, the age-old vows "love, honor, and obey" still apply in the bride's case, and even when they are not spoken, she still must comply to this. Airen, who supports the idea that women can be equal to men, disagreed with this rule, angry with the wife's inability to voice her opinion or make decisions. Airen likely interpreted this rule as implying that upon marriage, a woman must forfeit her personal authority, her independence, and her personal spiritual convictions in order to please her husband and God, while having no say-so of her own. Airen seemed to resent this rule, which she saw as saying that a man basically had the right to treat his wife as a child.
This latest information may make Airen seem like a blasphemer to some. But keep in mind that Airen has alternative religious and spiritual beliefs. From what I know, she believes in God and Christ but not in the traditional sense; she believes that the Bible was inspired by God but written by man, and during a time when women were viewed as inferior and treated as property. That being said, she wouldn't take elements like this one literally, especially where women are concerned.
Today, Airen could be seen in her apartment, contemplating whether or not she wanted to ever marry, because even though she disagreed with the idea of a submissive wife, she knew that many of her male peers still do, and she apparently feels there's no point in marrying anyone if a power struggle will ensue. She lives in an area of America that is predominately conservative, and in a city where most men are married and more likely to agree with such an idea. It appears she plans to just give up on men, despite not ever having a relationship.
I hear that Airen's biggest fears about relationships include not only the loss of identity, authority, and independence (through marriage), but also the loss of livelihood (e.g., due to a boyfriend's mistakes and/or her own mistakes made on a boyfriend's behalf), the unfulfillment of dreams (e.g., due to having been left alone to raise a child, whose paternity has been denied), falling victim to violence (e.g., being attacked by someone's jealous wife or girlfriend), and a possible lifetime of bitterness from having her heart broken so many times by so many men--each of which she has heard has happened to another woman, at least once.
In my search for Airen, I only hope that she can let go of these fears and come out of her glass cage. The world of dating can't all be ruthless. The "good guys" can't all be taken; the younger men can't all be looking for just one thing; and catfights can't possibly be so common--or so deadly--as she might think. I hope that sometime soon, she can open her heart, share the love she has and embrace the love she gets.
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